Running in Place

It's the holiday season. That's a fact I can't ignore. Tonight I'm going to my 3rd holiday party, and the scales haven't budged. Actually, they have. I bounce between 137 and 139. Mostly it sits at 138. It's been that way since early November. It's annoying. If I allowed myself to think about it I would be totally depressed!

When I was sharing my woes with a friend she said, "Losing weight during the holidays? Really? I think maintaining it is an accomplishment." I started thinking about that, and realized she is right. I really want to lose 5 more pounds before Christmas, but that's because my kids are coming. The truth is, they will be impressed with what I've already lost. If I can just get past New Years without regaining anything I will have conquered the holiday season.

New focus? Not really. Same plan, same hopes, but I will accept the reality. I will stick to the meals I've been eating during the day. I will continue to workout. I will walk even when it's cold and snowy...but probably not cold and windy. That wind really bites! I will go to parties and do my best to watch how much I eat and drink. I will try to pick only the diet friendly stuff.

But I will NOT drag myself down when I goof and over indulge. I will hug myself when I do well, and kick myself in the butt when I screw up. I will continue to weigh myself and measure myself. To do anything else would be to give up and that is the biggest NOT in my list. I WILL NOT GIVE UP ON MYSELF.

Resuming a Normal Lifestyle

I survived the 'party' last weekend, but not entirely unscathed. I hopped on the scales on Monday, and immediately hopped off again. Eww! I moved the scale around the floor, let it reset itself and clear its memory, and tried again...4 times. The scale was very consistent and very uncaring. I had popped up 2 pounds.

I relived the weekend, and thought about each treat I had allowed myself. It was no good. I just wasn't up to a guilt trip. I had such a good time and everything had tasted SOOO good! So I did an instant 'reset' on my status. Here were the facts.

I rewarded myself for losing 'almost' 10 pounds by enjoying friends, good food, and a fall festival. Why should I feel guilty? It was simply time to resume my normal lifestyle. Hmm, I liked looking at it that way; Resume my Normal Lifestyle. The weekend wasn't my normal lifestyle. It was just a weekend.

So I did resume my routine. I've walked, worked out, eaten reasonably, and enjoyed the occasional treat. At the end of this week I was 1/2 pound less than last week, which meant I had also re-lost the 2 pounds..

Of course, I probably would have fallen below the yellow line on Biggest Loser. And my team mates would have voted me off because of my cavalier attitude.... but that's why I'm 'Losing it Without Jillian".